The last
hour he has spent
strumming new tunes on
his acoustic guitar. It
was the consequences of
a soul-stirring love
affair that made Morten
Harket into a songwriter.
But the prelude to the
changes began with a
completely concrete
experience at the
giantic Maracana Stadium
in Rio de Janeiro in
1991.
He stood at the edge of
the enormous stage and
looked out over the
194,000 people - a sea
of people that each and
every one had come for
the sole purpose of
hearing a-ha. To see
Morten Harket.
"I swore under my breath,"
he says. "I looked out
over the crowd and had a
flashback of all the
milestones we had passed
since we began. I saw
how I still could not
shake myself free of the
cancer: I said to
myself: 'Fine, Morten.
Now you've managed to
gather together almost
200,000 people in one
evening. The only thing
they ask you to do is to
open the floodgates and
give them everything you
have. What is holding
you back now? What is
it you need before
letting go?'"
"You thought all this
while you stood on the
stage and sang to them?"
"Yes. They did not
notice anything, I think.
It was a good show. But
I had not learned to
really give of myself
yet," he explains.
"The strange thing
is that only in
hindsight did it dawn on
me that people actually
had the right to expect
me to be a pop star. I
had the whole time
believed that a person
should not take
themselves too seriously.
But I set myself up too
high by not accepting
that I had this role to
play," says Morten.
It was
the beginning of a
process that took a
year-and-a-half and that
formed him both as a
person and as a pop
star. "I began to let
go. I stopped picking
up everything that fell,
stopped preventing
things falling apart. I
just let things and
processes happen without
involving myself in them."
"Even your own
marriage?"
"It was not as if I
let go of my marriage
during this period, but
I rather simply let
things be
without trying to
control them. I had to
believe that those
things that were genuine
would stand such a
process and be there in
the end, regardless," he
explains, and exclaims:
"There was a lot of
naked unpleasantness
connected with it. But
it was for me a
necessary housecleaning
I had to undergo in
order to get in touch
with a kind of bedrock
inside of me (who I
really was - my basic
self - the person I was
at bottom - my inner
core)."
We breathe in
the night's fresh air in
the darkness of the pier
as he speaks about how
he watched, spellbound,
Paul and Magne on stage
at Asker High School and
thought, "the only thing
they're missing is me."
Some years earlier he
had been beaten up on a
daily basis by boys at
Heggedal Elementary
School as if it were a kind
of accepted local ritual.
"It was Hell, plain and
simple. I hated school.
I had fantastic
daydreams of being
stronger than anyone. I
would be the world's
strongest man - so
strong that they had
never seen the likes of
me."
"In many ways that is
what you have become?"
"Maybe. When I was 17,
I knew that in spite of
everything I would one
day be an international
star. It was not
something I believed,
but something I knew.
I went around
celebrating this fact
inwardly."
His daughter, Tomine,
calls to say she doesn't
want to go to the ballet
today. Pappa says that
it's OK, and recommends
other things she can
do. When the
10-year-old hangs up,
Morten talks about his
responsibility for the
children after the
divorce.
"We only have two
choices as parents: to
have a good relationship
together, or to have a
good relationship apart."
"Did you have no
reservations about
having more children
with someone new, even
though you already had
three?"
"It was right and
important both for Anne
Mette and myself to have
children. But I was
almost unprepared for
the effect it has had on
me - how suddenly the
child brightens
everything up like an
endless treasure, and
what a large place I
have for her beside the
other children (in my
heart)."
It was
the
beginning of a
process that took a
year-and-a-half and
that formed him both
as a person and as a
pop star.
"I began to let go.
I stopped picking up
everything that fell,
stopped preventing
things falling apart.
I just let things
and processes happen
without involving
myself in them."
"Even your own
marriage?"
"It was not as
if I let go of my
marriage during this
period, but I rather simply
let things be
without trying to
control them. I had
to believe that
those things that
were genuine would
stand such a process
and be there in the
end, regardless," he
explains, and
exclaims:
"There was a lot of
naked unpleasantness
connected with it.
But it was for me a
necessary
housecleaning I had
to undergo in order
to get in touch with
a kind of bedrock
inside of me (who I
really was - my
basic self - the
person I was at
bottom - my inner
core)."
We breathe
in
the
night's fresh air in
the darkness of the
pier as he tells
about how he watched,
spellbound, Paul and
Magne on stage at
Asker High School
and thought that "the
only thing they are
missing is me."
Some years earlier
he had been beaten
up on a daily basis
by boys at Heggedal
Elementary School as
if it were a kind of
accepted local
ritual.
"It was Hell, plain
and simple. I hated
school. I had
fantastic daydreams
of being stronger
than anyone. I
would be the world's
strongest man, so
strong that they had
never seen the likes
of me."
"In many ways that
is what you have
become?"
"Maybe. When I was
17, I knew that in
spite of everything
(that had happened
to me) I would one
day be an
international star.
It was not something
I believed, but
something I knew."
"I went around
celebrating this
fact inwardly."
His daughter, Tomine,
calls and says she doesn't
want to go to the
ballet today. Pappa
says that it's OK,
and recommends other
things she can do.
When the 10-year-old
hangs up, Morten
talks about his
responsibility for
the children after
the divorce.
"We only have two
choices as parents:
to have a good
relationship
together, or to have
a good relationship
apart."
"Did you have no
reservations about
having more children
with someone new,
even though you
already had three?"
"It was right and
important both for
Anne Mette and
myself to have
children. But I was
almost unprepared
for the effect it
has had on me - how
suddenly the child
brightens everything
up like an endless treasure,
and what a large
place I have for her beside
the other children
in my heart."
In a room at
Morten's place there
are four large
aquariums connected
by a
computer-controlled
network. The coral
and fish can be seen
as a natural
development of his
consuming interest
in butterflies and
orchids as a child.
He spots a
Camberwell Beauty (nymphalis
antiopa), a Red
Admiral (vanessa
adalanta), and a
Swallowtail (papilio
machaon) outside his
cabin. And there
will certainly be
orchids growing on
the islands around
about.
The apartment gives
an impression
activity - of people
on the move, of
creativity, creative
energy, and children.
His chaotic side is
clearly echoed here.
"I am not a
perfectionist," he
says. "My place
looks like a rubble
heap!" he laughs.
"But Anne Mette has
made a home out of a
center for the
processing and
development of
prototypes."
The office apartment
in Grünnerløkka is
suprisingly the
antithesis of this
one. It is
stringently designed,
with complete
attention down to
the smallest detail.
It could almost be
called a work of
art. It is here he
creates music - for
himself and for a-ha.
"The potential of
a-ha is still
greater than we have
been able to realize,"
says Morten. "We
failed in so many
ways. There was a
wide gap between our
actual musical
identity and the
image we were given.
I also looked like
the grave on stage,
and still do. We
did not exert our
opinion. We did
nothing to define
who we were.
Everything happened,
like, five minutes
before. And we
could see after a
while that we were
being interviewed by
pure teen
magazines."
"Can a-ha at some
point in time live
up to its potential?"
"The way we have
worked together on
the last two albums
shows that it is
possible. But I am
not sure that I can
answer 'yes' to that.
Today we feel the
need to follow up on
our private and
personal things. We
all of ous have
families and will
not sacrifice them
for the sake of the
band. There are
other things we must
consider than when
we were
20-something."
"You sound as if we
may have heard
a-ha's last album."
"It would anyway not
be the first time
(you've heard that).
But we need to feel
that the band is not
simply a container
that we have to keep
filling up. It is
the same with a love
relationship. It
must be able to
withstand
uncertainty and
fragility to be to
able to be strong."
"How much contact do
you, Paul and Magne
have when you are
not working together?"
"Very little -
because it is so
intense when we are
all in the same
boat. But that
doesn't change what
we feel and mean to
each other."
"Would you say you
are more like
colleagues than
brothers?"
"'Brothers'
describes better how
it feels to me."
"So if it came down
to it, would you
give your right arm
for the guys?"
"I do it all the
time."